If I push you away, will you push back? A Joanna Bateman Story

The sky mellows into nectarine.
It's quite the scene.
To be with you is to know that love is mean.
The way your father kicked your brother.
You watched it all through the summer screen.
Looking back in the book of time,
thumbing through history to climb
It doesn't repeat itself, it rhymes.
Remember once you told me that?
After that, I heard it all the time.

Does that ever happen to you?
You learn about something and then all of a sudden that something is everywhere?
It was like that for me and love.
Once I found it in a blanket wrapped so soft around me naked
In the arms of some forsaken woman ---whom I'll belong to for the rest of my life,
she is my favorite man's wife.
And then it was love everywhere.
Sleep walk love, wake up on the stairs.
Sleep talk love, wake up with the bears.
Sleep swim love, skinny dipping 'neath the stars.
Sleep drunk love, love on earth through Jupiter and Mars.
But I'm getting side tracked. 
I always do.
He is a worthy man,
He is like you.


My moods are all so temperamental.
All the time it's heart vs. mental.
This practice I give up.
I'll drive you to a corner.
Drive you out -my heart feels warmer
 without you here.
You have everything to fear.
A ship I've no idea how to steer.
The seat belt's broken, so I cry
into the traffic light so high.
It's my way of describing all the webs.
The veins and all the loose little threads.
I haven't got an ounce of control.
My friends they notice things I've stole.
And wouldn't it be grand
to live in a city not built on quick sand?
If I could mean what you think I seem I say
just seems I say
different things to different people every day.
There is no up or down or right wrong way.
When i tell the truth
I see you sink
I brace myself to think
of volleying you back and forth
In, to and from the matted hell.
A circle charred from all this light
I'm not a lot of fun,
A common misconception of our warm and lovely sun.

When we sleep together we hold close the night.
I want to breathe
And you still cling
And it hurts me to push you away
So beside you still and drifting, yet I stay.
Boy I wish that I could paint it another way,
but the brush strokes come some different smile watered down.
I've seen this before.
It's sadly nothing new.
Out of love and dying.
Just this time it's with you.

The sunset by the mountains breaking softly by the sea
Reminds me of a date I had
When you were not with me.
There was a boy - a model man
and me-my fanny pack, made sure to clasp my hand
with my other behind my back-
I didn't want to cheat you.
I didn't want to stray.
I didn't want to feel the things I ended feeling anyway.

Now I got to thinkin how I feel when we are kissin
or when on our trip to my first mission.
It's a pity and a shame
 I end them all this way.
It's a curse because I make it so.
  Love's a broken fossil though.
I toss it up beyond our house.
Beyond the hills and letters. Stacks of bills.
Moments before the quake, with all the love inside us still
              I break.